![]() Quickly, he slipped down and went to the guardians. Rezart breathed quietly and looked around. “Tonight will mark the closure of my ancestor’s mistakes,” he thought. However, his time was up now, so he slipped out of his home and went to the guardians. He wanted to complete his whole life in the few minutes he had left. He suddenly wanted to make thousands more pots, bowls and teach others how to do the same in an hour, enough to fill up a lifetime’s work. When he had finished making it, he stared at it for some time. As he waited, he took a moment to make another piece of pottery. He almost couldn’t believe that he was doing this. He breathed deeply, his gaze transfixed on the sky. Cernos had told him to wait a few hours, for that’s when he would have convinced the guardians to listen to him. The eastern tribe was quiet, and everyone was asleep. Now for the last part: 'The last journey to the mountain'Īs dusk fell upon the world, Rezart twiddled with a guardian binding key. Submitted by antiqueail to AsOneAfterInfidelity Ģ023.04.07 05:06 Sir_Chirpsalot Part 9 of my journey 'the forest and the guardians' is done (FINALE) I would just like the space to heal at my own pace instead of him trying to put a deadline on it. I don't know how long it's going to take, sincerely, I don't. He brought up that fact that AP's Grandmother passed away and that he didn't attend the funeral because she would be there, which I appreciate, but it feels like he's blaming me for it. (On a side note, I seriously considered ending the relationship then but I've dealt with serious mental illness in the past so it hit a tender spot.) I mentioned in my previous post that 'last' Dday was about 2 years ago but sometime last year he messaged her on TikTok because her Mother had come into his place of employment and told him she was feeling down - so really, it hasn't been a year since he last reached out to her. He asked how long he was going to be kept "under the microscope". I brought up the fact that I thought he was headed her direction and he was bothered by it. Ultimately he did not go that fat, but I was really worried that he would. I posted a couple of days ago about how I was paranoid about a drive my WS was taking because he was headed in the direction AP lives. Submitted by WonderfulCoconut to ftm Ģ023.04.07 05:06 antiqueail I told WS how I felt about his drive and he was offended. Any positivity or anything is appreciated I just want to put this out there somewhere. I left and told her I loved her I wasn’t going to argue with her in this state, and she said she loved me. But I also hate the idea that this will be one of the last interactions we ever have. I believe that this might have been one of her earlier thoughts and her Alzheimer’s kind of put her into an earlier mindset and lowered her inhibitions to vocalize things that she previously would’ve kept to herself. I know her brain is all over the place- her level of lucidity varies hour to hour (she saw a picture of her daughter and thought it was her mom, and started saying one of her kids got married in Rwanda which… didn’t happen). I don’t want you to be a man, I want you to be a young woman like me, you should stop dressing like that.” Today I went back though and she started to suddenly say “I wish you just stayed normal. When I first saw her it took her a few minutes to realize who I was but after a few minutes she said “are you -name-?” And she told me I looked great, that she was hoping to see me. She isn’t remembering all her kids/grandkids when she sees them but she was asking to see me specifically. I got a message the other day that she went into hospice care and I felt kind of shitty being that person that shows up just at the last minute but I really wanted to go see her. I had spoken to my grandma a few times and she knew I was transitioning, but her memory was going and the conversations started to get confusing as my voice changed. And because of covid and my personal finances and a few other reasons, I haven’t been back home in almost 5 years. ![]() I moved out of state a few years ago, and purely by chance that’s when I realized I needed to transition. We went out for ice cream all the time, I’d sleep over at her house if I had a bad week, we went to thrift shops together, she sewed Halloween costumes and bedspreads for me. Growing up my grandmother was one of my favorite people in the world- and she wouldn’t admit it, but it was known to the rest of the family that I was the favorite grandchild. ![]()
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